Thankyou for all youre advice.  Alot of you are saying that I should attend some sort of schooling. I first would like to apologize for not being as clear as I should of been. See I attented college for two years, focusing on English as a major. After two years I dicided that, that wasnt what I wanted to do with my life. I entered myself into a nursing program and supervise five amazing young males between the ages of 13 and 16 that have autism. I have been doing the nursing program comming up on a year. But like I said, I am at a point in my life where I'm not sure this is what I want to do.  I dont live at home and because of that its really hard to do school and work fulltime. I am a fully dependent 20 year old and have everything because ive worked for it.  Ive taken a break for about a year from college full time.  I love english, but I dont want to be forced to do it. When you wake up in the mourning to go to work, youre forced to. But that is only because you must pay to live...lol My writting skills are pretty good. I dont think one could judge another through blogging because I myself just type away quickly here. Its never a concern of mine to go back and fix grammatical errors and such.

I guess Im just looking for the answer to fast. Its unrealistic for me to go back to college at this point fulltime. That would stop me from attending my medication distribution and nursing program classes.

Any other suggestions please.

So let me change my questions.